maybe i miss him
it’s always when i’m at my lowest that i miss him. i miss the way he was the only person i could ever let see me cry and the way he would just hold me, never saying a word, never budging, for however long i needed. the way he just held me and let me cry.
i miss the way he looked at me, like every moment was a treasure. i miss the way his hands felt from never wearing gloves. i miss the way he’d tell me why every flaw i had made me perfect.
i miss the way he knew all the music i liked and made me mix cd’s. i miss the way he’d say my name, the way he couldn’t go a day without talking to me. i miss the way he’d randomly pull me in and slow dance with me in the street, or the way he took me outside when it was raining just to kiss me.
i miss the way he knew i was upset or the way he’d run 5 miles to see me just for 5 minutes. i miss the way he’d play with the necklace he bought me saying it only resembles an ounce of my beauty. the necklace i still wear.
sometimes i wonder where he is in the world or if he ever thinks of me, it’s been 5 years, and i wonder what he remembers if he does. i hope he remembers the person he made me.
he made me independent, fearless, outspoken, yet vulnerable, he taught me how to feel, how to allow someone in, how to fully let yourself go and allow yourself to enjoy the moments. someone i was proud to be.
maybe i don’t miss him, but the way it was, the way he made me feel, and the person i was when i was with him.
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i haven’t posted a playlist in a while so i thouht i would share with you the beginning roots of my summer playlist. it normally gets about 200 songs long by the end so this is just a simple beginning but i hope you enjoy what i cruise around to in the car to get ready for that warm weather.
if anyone ever has any song suggestions or great songs that they know inbox them to me! i love discovering new music.